suzyburr13

Back to kick some ass and take some names. =]

Goal weight, here I come!

So..how is everyone? =]

Things have gotten rather stressful. I temporarily lost motivation this weekend. Any words of advice would be amazing. = /

 -Suzy

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..for jealous girls to try and bring me down. -_-. This is a large, rambling rant, so thought I would warn y’all.

I’m already feeling good about myself, with the fact that I’m doing something with myself. Working out, it makes me feel a lot better about what i want and how I’m going to obtain these goals. I’m doing what I need to do, getting my hair done tomorrow, just stupid little things to make me look in the mirror and go, “hey, you’re lookin damn fine today” =P

Anyways, the main reason for blogging is because of my boyfriend’s crazy ex that just can’t leave well enough alone. In a twisted way, she’s helping me motivate myself to prove all of my doubters wrong. Long story short, she dumped him back in July of 2007, {simply a one month relationship, absolutely nothing serious whatsoever}; him and i started dating that August, and we’ve been together ever since. This past November I come to find that she’s been stalking his myspace and mine. Upon calling her out on it, she only responds by writing to him and calling him every name in the book. Then calling me ‘ugly’, ‘fat’, whatever else her little brain decided to cook up. If this was a few years ago, i would be crushed. But now with my attitude and coming from a girl that openly hates herself more than i could ever contribute, it means nothing. I don’t need to hide my face with a blanket of hair in every picture honey, and I don’t need to constantly smear it all around that I love someone. He knows I love him, and that’s what matters. So go ahead, taunt me with your meaningless words, its all rubbish in the end.

::UGH:: I thought highschool ended when i graduated back in 2004. In order to clear the frustration I played my Dance Dance Revolution game for a good 45 minutes, burned 300 calories which isn’t the greatest, but its not bad either. Anyways, since I’m pretty much recovered from my sickness I’ll be back in the full swing of things tomorrow. Oh! and new hair as well, so I’ll be sure to post pictures up. =]

I hope everyone’s doing great out there. If anyone else is going through this nonsense, take a tip from me. Jealousy is a vicious thing, so smile in its face and just be you, it pisses it off even more. =P

-Suzy

Exercise Log

What? Suzy wants to work out? I don’t think I know who I am..

I never thought i would be ‘into’ exercising. But yeah, I completely and totally am..even thought about hooking up my DDR game and dancing like a fool for an hour or so.

I have a new reason to add to the listing as well. I’ve decided to apply to the police academy in the area. July is when the program starts, so I should be okay since I’m beginning so early. However, its a lot of moo-lah, so we’ll see where it goes. Frustrating that my ideal career involves me being a ‘beat cop’ for three years..but just another hurdle to jump. No biggie.

Unfortunately, the past three days I’ve developed a cough, thats steadily progressing into an incredibly dry throat/chest hurting-on-occasion cough. Green tea has been my friend, but i’d be so much happier without hacking up a lung while trying to do my routine for the day.  -_-

Keep your heads up! Every day is a new journey. =]

-Suzy

Exercise Log

 Hi there =]

Exercise tonight, core synergistics as its called. P90X is going to kick my butt in the worst most painfully possible way and for some reason, I feel soooo great. Like I’m ready to tackle another obstacle tonight. [But ya know, I won’t..cause its 9pm and I have work at 7]. =]

So yeah, I had no real reason to post except to check in with everyone and say I feel really good. It’s like the runners high my boyfriend always talks about, sans the six mile run..[I am terrible at running, my boobs get in the way so I stopped trying lol]..I’ll stick to the eliptical and my workout tapes.

Everyone out there, hope your doing great! I’ll let ya all know how its going. Next goal for me? Getting a decent scale..

-Suzy

Exercise Log

Since its been a whirlwind of parties and the like the past two weeks, I haven’t done a very good job at all maintaining my exercise routine like I wanted to.

2008, well was pretty much a terrible year for me. A decent amount of drama, money issues, self-realizations, terrible self-esteem and poor judgements on my part. I’ve had a lot of weeks go by where I didn’t even find it worth it to get out of bed in the morning.

But now, its 2009. An entire year of new possibilities, new adventures, new challenges. As a personal promise to myself, I’m going to get out of this funk and into the person I want to be. A person who can look inside and out, and say to themselves, “I feel really good about who I am and how I feel”.

This past year made me a lot wiser, a lot more responsible, and finally fed up enough to say I’ve had enough, and I refuse to bring myself down anymore.

I hope everyone had a safe and happy holiday season, and if anyone that reads this feels the same way, just know we can do this. The only person stopping us, is us.

-Suzy

I swear, I picked the wrong time  of the year to start exercising! But thats okay, just have to push through it. =]

Had a party last night which went very well despite having to play nurse-maid when my boyfriend drank too much. lol. But thats okay, he’s taken care of me a few times when I over-did it. Anyyyyways, we bought a bunch of soda for rum and cokes, and now we still have a 12 pack left. Bah, damn you coca-cola and your addicting soda products.

Off to do some core workout, maybe some karate if I’m feeling ambitious. Hope everyone is doing great!

Exercise Log

The past two days I haven’t been able to work out due to the holiday. Let myself down big time on that one, so I cleaned up the entire downstairs today for almost two hours, and I’m going to do some karate-type exercise for an hour tonight. Maybe work on legs and back since I missed those yesterday.

When I first started to exercise, I initially wanted to do it for my boyfriend. Just so I could smile when he picks me up, not cringe at how heavy I must be to him. After a rather heated argument tonight however, he let me know he thought I was a ‘fat pig’ and now my perspective has changed. I need to be doing this for myself, not for anyone else.

Oh, as an update from my last post, I got my car working =] My battery died due to the extreme cold of the two days prior. Hope everyone had a great holiday! And thankyou for the supportive comments, it really makes me feel like someone else out there cares and is fighting along with me. =]

-Suzy

Exercise Log

Well, i’m keeping up with my workout routines. Despite all the bad things happening in my life at the moment. Loss of hours at work, my car died yesterday, might not be able to go to school this semester due to money, etc. etc. Everything else seems to be failing on me, so I just stick to my workouts. If i start looking better, maybe I’ll just generally feel better. I’m so down lately, I’m trying to push through all the junk and stick to positive thoughts about how good i’ll feel in a few months.

Cheated today, my boyfriend bought me a 20oz. coke and a reeses. He wanted to cheer me up, I shouldn’t have eaten/drank it, but I have to admit, it cheered me up if only for a brief amount of time.

Until then, here goes nothing. =/